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I recently got in touch with some people in my family and they pretty much tried to put a guilt trip on me for not coming around when I went back to Bowling Green recently. Maybe not in so many words, but it's the usual, 'Oh I can't believe you were in town and we haven't seen you!'

*sighs, facepalms*

I don't even know what to say. Am I supposed to feel guilty for that? My whole life, I always felt like I was just there but invisible to these people (most of them anyway). I was the youngest out of 8, and when I was born, my brothers and sisters were already grown up. They had their own lives to live. I get that. But that made me feel left behind, and yes, invisible. And as I got older, it got worse. That's why I was so angry all the time. Not only that, I felt out of place. I didn't sleep at night very well. I started feeling sick probably around 12 or so. Did they bother helping me? No...

By the way, this was from a much older cousin of mine, who had gotten very snooty with me at our uncle's funeral in 2010. I hadn't seen or spoken to her until 2015, and even then, she still had this high and mighty attitude. Even when I talked to her, she was boasting about how she is planning this and that. Seriously. I'm happy for you but you are doing too much. The conversation with her turned very one-sided.

When I started middle school, I shut down. The only thing I had to look foward to was music. When I started in high school, that was taken away from me, so I had nothing to keep me distracted. I hung out with the wrong crowd, started liking things most looked down on (rap music, the whole culture). Over time, I started feeling like I was the black sheep (no pun intended).

Looking back, I still feel my anger and frustration was justified. In my teen years, I started feeling pain and constant fatigue. I missed two to three days a week of school. In 10th grade, I flunked all my classes. I just could not concentrate. I felt like my brain was elsewhere.

And nobody fuckiing cared...It felt like over time, I was treated like a burden. Family came to visit when they could. I opted to stay in my room most of the time, or was even told to stay there. Might be why I like Harry Potter so much.... /shrugs

And to this day, I'm still struggling, only it's worse. Some days, I don't leave the house/apartment. Traveling is very draining and exhausting. When I'm in Bowling Green, I stay at my dad's. And they need to understand that being there is hard on me as well. Since he got sick last year, I've had to help him with housework, which is very draining and exhausting. And even BEFORE that, I would be so wiped out, I'd just stay there.

Besides, I lived in Louisville for 6 years, sent Xmas cards to some of them, WITH MY ADDRESS ON IT... None of them bothered to send one in return unless it was to my dad's address... which bugs the shit out of me. And none ever asked or implied they wanted to come visit me.

I HAD been in Columbia TN for nearly 5 years... wash... rinse...repeat. I never got an invite to go see any family that lives in Dickson or Nashville... so ... whatever. I'm not going to feel guilty for having to put myself or my father first. Over the last 10 years, I have had to put my health needs first...and with my dad, it's both of us.

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Can't believe it's been 20 years now

On this date back in 1998, a severe thunderstorm barrled through Bowling Green, KY, producing an F3 tornado, up to softball and even grapefruit sized hail. I swear the funnel cloud went over the apartment where my mom and I lived at the time. She said she could feel the floor moving and the hail was so bad it shook the walls. This was part of one of the most active severe weather outbreaks in history.

At the same time, Nashville had also been hit, and we had no idea until the storm that hit us was over. That storm produced an F2 tornado that went straight through the downtown area. Newschannel5 has an entire page full of information about it:

https://www.newschannel5.com/news/trail-of-tornadoes

The next link is a PDF with information about the Bowling Green, KY storm. There was widespread damage throughout Warren County. On the right hand side, near the bottom, there is a photo of an apartment complex shredded by hail (the pale blue siding). We lived around the corner from this complex. Our roof was damaged and two windows were blown out. My mom's car windshield was shattered and both cars sustained hail damage. I wish I had my photo album with me so I can show you how bad it was.

https://www.weather.gov/media/lmk/pdf/posters/April_16_1998_Poster.pdf

Here is a radar image from that storm. You can clearly see the hail shaft highlighted in the pink/purple color as it cut straight through the Bowling Green proper area. This storm eventually made its way through Barren, Adair, and Metcalf counties. Unfortunately three people died in this storm :( If I remember right, a radio station in Metcalf county had to issue its own tornado warning because there was no warning issued from the NWS. All communications from the NWS had been cut from the storm damage.



This was by far one of the scariest things I've ever lived through, as it was for many people. Since then, storms have gotten more powerful. Boy are we in for a bumpy ride as climate change takes its hold.

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Who says hockey doesn't belong in the South? Believe it or not, a lot of people. What do I say to those people?

Take a good hard look. You're not dreaming. We haven't slipped into an 'alternate reality', so to speak. This team just made history by advancing to the Western Conference Final for the first time ever. Now, it may not look like a lot to you, but for almost 20 years in the making, this is what Nashville has only had to imagine since the team's inception. With quite the track record for never advancing past the second round, I'd say it's pretty big.

I mean, hell. Just look at this crowd of over 18,000 people:


Ah, to be there, risking my eardrums busting. I would have given anything to witness this is person. But seeing this on national television... I'm still reeling from the excitement.

More highlights from NBC:


I tell you what, though. The Blues realy gave the Preds a hell of a fight. Now onto face either the Ducks or the Oilers more than likely next week. Let's go Preds!!!

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